Guest Book
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Guest Book Testimonials
Ronnie Saada (Dad)
June 13, 2024
It’s been four years since I saw you in your apartment on June 12, 2020, and asked you to promise me that you would never hurt yourself.
Four years since I saw your smile, a smile that could light up the darkest room.
Four years since I gave you a hug and told you that I loved you. I only wish I hugged you a lot more!
Four years since I heard your voice, where you told me your plans about getting into cybersecurity but had to put things on hold because we were in the middle of a global pandemic.
Four years since we went to the gym together, and I was so impressed with how much weights you could lift.
Four years since we went for a run, feeling the wind on our faces and the freedom of the open road.
Four years since we watched a good action-packed movie together and I enjoyed hearing your laugh.
Four years since we had a meal together and you would gobble up your food before most of us even started to eat.
Four years since we watched you play a computer game with your brother and friends and you would get so excited that the walls would shake, especially when playing League of Legends!
Four years since we celebrated your 21st birthday and saw your excitement when we bought you your first 4K TV.
It’s been four years, but it feels like just yesterday. The pain of losing you is still fresh, but so is the love and the memories we shared. You may be gone, but you will never be forgotten. Your spirit lives on in the hearts of all who knew you, and your legacy of love, passion, and joy will continue to inspire us. I miss you every day, my beloved son, and I will carry you with me always.
Vinayak V.
March 16, 2024
Jonathan would have been my best friend,we share so much similar hobbies,I will always remember him and pray for him to rest happily in heaven🙏consider me as your own son,you guys are the best parents and I will meet Jonathan in afterlife and be his best friends🖤
Jacob Skidmore
February 22, 2024
I never had the chance to meet Jonathan unfortunately. But I’ve been moved by his story. I’m not someone who is often sentimental, but I find myself back on this page from time to time. Honestly I feel like me and him could’ve been good friends. On social media I advocate for people with personality disorders and honestly his story is a huge incentive to me to keep doing so. He’s taken a place in my heart that I never expected a stranger could.
Thank you for sharing this page. I’m glad I got to know him, despite never meeting
Isa Sullivan
November 15, 2023
Jonathan came into my thoughts today and I was thinking about the time my family and I spent with him. He was one of the funniest guys I know and just a fun guy to be around. He was passionate about his likes and always questioning things and asking the “why” questions to everything. He may be gone but he’s never forgotten by all the people who cared about him.
Erina Theodore
June 3, 2023
I have a 15-year-old boy, my only child. I’m always talking to, hugging, encouraging, and telling him every day how much I love him. I never ever want him to feel like he’s not loved. Reading about your son, I can see how much he was loved. Unfortunately, as a parent, our love is not enough to keep them safe. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Todd McMahon
October 15, 2022
Some reflections, if I may, on Jonathan…..
I always remember him as the boldest child I’ve ever known. He had a bravery that I actually envied—I wanted a grown-up version of what I saw in him. I remember the way he could speak to grown ups—strangers, even—and not do that “shy recoil” almost all other kids his age do! It concerned Andrea, if I remember correctly, because he would be so daring! And the fearless way he’d run ahead of us when we were walking places, not even looking behind to make sure the grown ups were keeping up! I always figured him to be a leader when he grew up, not a follower, you know?Â
And I know this could sound shallow but, to me, Jonathan was one of the most beautiful children I’ve ever seen. His dark hair, like you & Andrea have. His big, expressive eyes. And, like you, his strong jawline! I thought he could’ve been in print advertisements.Â
And I never minded having him with us! He wasn’t a bratty kid. Enjoyable, even— and I’m not a “kid person”! He was always up for an adventure, and so he was fun to be with. I believe some of that is parenting, but some of that was his nature.
And, you are right, I guess I did love Jonathan. I never realized it until I heard the news about his suicide. My heart was (and still is) wrecked when I heard. I still feel I could cry.Â
I weep for you because your relationship with him was so much more than father & son. For Andrea, who carried & gave birth to her first born. For Joanna who adored him in a way I wish I felt with my nephews. For Benjamin in the ways it surely affects him deep down. For Jonathan’s grandparents, because, naturally, it’s unthinkable for a grandchild to proceed his grandparents in death.Â
And I weep for his absence in the world. Jonathan’s “light” has been extinguished, and that’s a tragedy for the worlld.Â
It’s an honor that Kris & I knew him in the time we shared & the memories we made. Treasured memories…
And, to be completely honest, I’m sad in my spirit after seeing all those photos of his life. I’m pleased in all his accomplishments…but regretfully wish I could’ve known them in real time; I do feel proud of him, even if it’s behindhand.Â
Ronnie Saada (Dad)
December 12, 2021
Happy Birthday to our dear son Jonathan!
Today you are 23 years old. We miss you so much! Not a day goes by without us thinking about you and wishing you were here with us. We miss your smile, your laugh, your powerful hugs, and enthusiasm about life! I miss going to the gym with you to work out, or going for a run at the park, watching a movie together, or playing video games. Celebrating your birthday here on earth without you next to us is very hard but we have faith that you continue to celebrate your birthday with the angles of heaven and family and friends who have gone before us.
We continue to live our lives and try to remain positive but the pain of your loss is always there. We carry it everywhere we go. So many people love and miss you including thousands of people on the Internet who have heard your story and responded. You will always be in our heart and thoughts and we will do everything in our power to help other people who are suffering with mental health or drug addiction. Because every life matters and everyone deserves unconditional love and acceptance!
Happy Birthday Jonathan! We love you always!
D. Tych
Nov 24, 2021
I’m so sorry for your loss. He sounds like a beautiful young man. I think BPD may be a form of hypersensitivity. A gift of profound depth and empathy, combined with a painful curse of deep and overwhelming feelings at the same time. I read that Vincent Van Gogh had BPD.
Zenia Kim
July 25, 2021
I found your comment on YouTube and I want to say thank you for sharing Jonathan’s story. As someone who also has BPD, it broke my heart to watch his younger years and read about his life. I felt connected. He was a warrior, and he will continue to help others who struggle with his hardships feel heard and understood. All the love and joy to Jonathan!
Coco K.
July 25, 2021
I saw a comment on YT from your Channel that led me to this page, so I got interested in Jonathan’s story. I’m from germany and I struggle with BPD. I’m moved to tears from that story. I feel really sad for all of you who lost a dear soul which got bruised on it’s way. I hope he is at peace now and doesnt have to struggle any more. Seeing all this is very touching, whenever I feel in a similar way and snap, I think about the undying grief and pain of loss that some families have whose children have comitted suicide. Usually this prevents me from snapping. It’s really hard and dear Jonathan is not to blame. Thank you for sharing his story and please stay strong and healthy. Much love from germany
Grandpa and Grandma David & Donna Slater
July 17, 2021
Just re-looked at this again. Our memories of Jonathan are the good memories. As his grandparents we remember the good times and good talks we shared with Jonathan. His smile was so infectious and his eyes were so full of life. What a good looking young man he was. Our joy is to know he is out of pain and rejoicing with Jesus in heaven. We know some day we will see him again and be reunited with our sweet Jonathan.
Joanna Saada
June 13, 2021
It’s been a year since I received that phone call
The one that changed my life
365 days since you’ve been gone
There are things I can count
But so many things I can’t
All the times I heard a joke and thought “jonathan will love it”
The times I wanted to talk to you about a movie
The times I wanted to pick up the phone and call you only to remember I can’tÂ
They say that time heals the pain
But it’s not true
You just learn to live with it
Some days are easier
Some days are hard
Like someone who lost an arm or a leg
The awareness of the loss is always there
You left us in a time of a global pandemic
When the world felt crazy
As the world is trying to create a new normal
so are we
A daily life that will never be the same
A daily existence that is always shrouded in sadnessÂ
If this year taught me something
It’s how important it is to love one another
To accept the other even when they are different than us
And I pray that Jonathan is watching us from above
And I pray that he finally understands how loved he is
Marie Sander
June 12, 2021
Beautiful memories of your son. Thank you for sharing your son’s story. I am very sorry for your loss!
Kellie Lane
May 25, 2021
Just wanted to say I saw you comment on a video on YouTube, I came to your page to read about Jonathan. You have done a great job with this page in honouring your son and also providing information and resources to help others. I am sorry for your loss.
Victoria Zubowicz
April 14, 2021
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. Much love to your family.
Michael Easley
March 27, 2021
You were, and still are, my best friend. I still feel pain when I think about you. Today I cried for the first time in 2 months because I came here to your page. There are no words to express how much I miss you… How much I wish we could keep growing together today. I’m trying to move forward and do you proud. I hope one day we can meet again, brother.
Anthony N.
March 24, 2021
My Prayers go out to the family and friends. I personally did not know Jonathan or his family but after reading this story it really touched my heart. Jonathan was blessed to have a caring and loving family who provided for him. Unfortunately things happen in life that is out of our control but we can learn from them and make changes to prevent another tragedy from happening. Thank you for sharing this personal story. May the peace and Love of G-d be with you and your Love ones. “Blessed are those who mourn, For they will be comforted.”
Riaz Shaik
March 18, 2021
Amazing way to celebrate a beautiful soul…May Jonathan’s soul Rest in Peace…he is in a better place (heaven) than this world and in better company (angels) than this world.
Scott Millican
March 17, 2021
Thanks for sharing Jonathan’s story. It is unfortunately like many others, including our daughter who died under similar circumstances in 2011.
Steve Abrams
March 14, 2021
For sharing Jonathan’s story and more… the parts of his life he loved. For bringing attention to the extraordinary talents he possessed and even with them, how fragile life can be. And to remind us all, how so important it is to relish and embrace every moment you have with those you love.
Ronnie, your family is very special to me and you all have my deepest love.
Arlene Spratt
March 14, 2021
Thanks for sharing your story. Deepest sympathy. My heart  goes out to all of you. I will continue to prayÂ
 for Jonathan and all the family.  A beautiful life ended too soon.
May God bless you all.
Justine Easley
March 13, 2021
We will forever love Johnathan.. I always would see Michael and Johnathan just always being together as friends.. we love you very much..
Patrick Bleuler
March 12, 2021
After hours of trying to write something, I came to the conclusion that there’s just too much going through my mind, I don’t know where to start. I knew him since a very young age when he got into strategy gaming, he was blessed, a genius. I’ve got such a big amount of memories with him, gosh I wish he came to visit me. I know I could’ve done so much…. I should’ve done so much more! I miss this man so hard. We’ve had a friendship barely anyone would understand. He supported me in my worst times of my life, he was always there for me, always!
Jonathan was one of a kind, absolute master mind. He was probably the best friend I’ve ever had, we shared so much, had so much in common…
I miss you Johnny! I miss you so much!
I’ve got so many things to tell you, so many things I need to show you…. Please be waiting for me up there brother. We will meet again, I promise you king.
In Love
Zedpade
Meme Riitta & Pepe Jonathan
August 2, 2020
Our sweet pretty boy,
You left us some six weeks ago. It seems such a long time. We must have the date wrong! impossible!
It must be your laugh…No , it is your smile that we miss the most. Just to see your face , once more.
Watch you climb a tree, catch a wave, swallow a slice of pizza or hug one of us. You were the best hugger!
You seem more present in your death than when you were alive. Constantly around. Is it the void, the lack of calls, the deafening silence ?
We still worry for you. Are you finally at peace?
We really hope you are now, finding the answers to all the questions you always had. You were so curious.
Your name does not show up anymore on the callers ID. Your last call was 50 days ago.
Cannot believe how many tears our body can spill ? When will it stop?
So many of your friends are missing you too. It’s amazing how many lives you touched. But you did not know or did not believe so. They all are heartbroken, together in unison with us.
God will take care of you. We wish we could do that too, just once more. We did not have enough chances.
We only have great memories of you. You big heart and your big smile have erased the struggling moments.
Rest In Peace sweetheart. Please watch over all of us from above.
Tboop Macazo
July 30, 2020
My dear Jonathan, I was fond of you already even before I met you. Perhaps it was because your Auntie Joanna would often tell me sweet stories about you or maybe because your goofy smile and big beautiful eyes would greet me every time I go to the fridge, where you Auntie prominently displays your first ever selfie photo. So when I finally met you, a grown-up version of the selfie but with the same goofy smile and big beautiful eyes, well, let’s just say you had me at “shalom”. Jon, you were a special surprise to what was already an incredible time for me in Israel. Thank you that you allowed me to be an extra Auntie for you when you were in Jerusalem.
My best times with you buddy were singing out loud Ariana Grande songs and Mr. Mister’s Kyrie in your Auntie’s car, burger dinner at Machane Yehuda, falafel lunches at King George St., hanging out at the Tel Aviv Beach (pizza and pasta time!) while waiting for Auntie’s counselling to be done, movie and lunch dates together with Auntie Joanna and just walking back home with you at Yafo St., with that cool swagger of yours. You were patient to explain your video games, forgiving of my burnt omelettes and tolerated my teasing when I said you looked like Roger Federer (you said you were more handsome) and when I asked you to donate some of your eyelashes to me. I couldn’t keep up with your many facts and trivia (especially Star Wars). You really brought energy and youth to that apartment. But I also glimpsed your mature side when Auntie Joanna had an emergency and you were so concerned yet brave about it.
I want you to know that you are much loved, especially by your incredible family. And I know that you do too, because one fine day, you told me that your favorite Hebrew word was “esh” – for it reminded you of family barbecues. A simple statement that said a lot.
Thank you dear Jonathan, for allowing me to have these treasured memories. May you find the everlasting peace that transcends understanding. I will miss you, my buddy.
Thank you beautiful Saada family, for sharing the joy of Jonathan with us. May you also find the peace that transcends understanding, with each passing day.
Eeva & David Kocsis
July 24, 2020
Jonathan, you were such a beautiful and bright soul, we cherish the few times we had with you and were looking forward to more visits with you. We don’t understand why you left this world too soon, but in the Kingdom of God everything will be made new and there will be no more tears. You were deeply loved and will be deeply missed by your family and us, your great-aunt and uncle. Shalom until we meet again in eternity.
Auntie JoannaÂ
June 22, 2020
Jonathan is the one who made me auntie
A title I wear with pride
He had my heart the second he was born
And I would do anything to make him happy
At first it was easy LEGO sets, computer games, going out to a movie sharing a popcorn with skittles, and drinking a slurpee, but in the past 3 years making him happy was a little harder
Jonathan had the biggest smile
And the Most beautiful eyes
They say the eyes are the windows to the soul
And as years went by the pain in his eyes got bigger
I wish he saw himself like I saw him
I wish life was easier for him
I wish he fulfilled all of his dreams
I wish he reached all of his goals
I just wish
He was a person which so much life force
A star that shone so bright
A star that this planet could not contain
I saw a movie on the plane ride from Israel and at the end of it was a saying by Rainer Maria Rilke
Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final
Now we are in a period when all we feel is pain. Allow yourself to feel that pain. Allow yourself to mourn this great loss… but also allow yourself to continue living.
there will be good and happy days again
Like my 11 year old niece told me as she tried to console me “over all, life is beautiful”
Andrea, Ronnie, Benjamin, Riitta, Papa, and all of you who love jonathan
Alone this pain is too much to bare, but together we are strong
Let us take comfort knowing Jonathan is not hurting anymore. He is with God in the presence of pure love
We have so many memories together, I know Jonathan would want us to continue making more
Sofia Sullivan
June 22, 2020
Dear Sada family,
I’m so sorry for your loss. I will forever cherish all of the childhood memories I had with Jonathan from Disneyland trips, to going out to eat & just hanging out together. Your family is in my prayers.
Isabella Sullivan
June 22, 2020
Jonathan,
I will forever remember and cherish all the days our families had together when we were younger. Hanging out at the pool, and even going to Disneyland. More recently when we saw you in California about a year ago and all went out to eat. You were one of the funniest people that I know and could make everybody laugh!
Rest In Peace and lots of love!
-Isa
Angela Murr
June 20, 2020
Hello my name is Angela and i went to church with this family for several years and eat meals in their home precious precious family. Jonathan will be missed. My prayers are with this family at this time. LOVE………..
Corina Sullivan Family
June 19, 2020
Dear Ronnie, Andrea and Benjamin,
We wanted to let you know that our family is grieving this loss. We love Jonathan very much. We will treasure the many memories we enjoyed with him!
We love you Jonathan!!!
Love,
The Sullivan’s
Grandpa and Grandma David & Donna Slater
June 17, 2020
Jonathan we love you. and we will miss you.
We remember many good & happy times we spent with you.
We find peace knowing you are in the arms of Jesus.
Grandpa & Grandma Slater
Ronnie & Andrea & Benjamin
We love you. Praying for you during this tragic time.
We are & always will be here for you.